Adrian

WHoa! finally sitting down to study my linear algebra test tomorrow. Yup... haha. it's now like around 9pm. Die! still havent finish up the revision. terrible me. Well today i had the mechanic test and the presentation. Overall i felt that i screwed up the presentation. I wasn't able to get the class to talk. Firstly yup, i agree and i dont deny that the topic which i'm going to share is really dry.. It's reflection. How many things can i talk on beside reflection in action and reflection for action and some other lame theories.. This education module really killing me. Then I'm not so cinfident about the presentation too. I totally smoke it through man.. Terrible. However, the presentation is totally over! thanks god =) I really let off two heavy burden today. the test  and the presentation

How about the test?

Yup. the test is like we totally can discuss about the questions. Totally cool man. haha. so i ask gen for the answer=x bad teacher here. =x Luckily Gen offer to share with me the answer. heng sia.

Well today i really feel stressed and want so much to see my babe girl! whoa! i see her. i'm so happy! cheers! she today wore shorts. really cute of her. she look totally different today. I like her outfit. But she say that she has wide hip and it totally spoil her outlook. Well i dont mind how she look. Cause she is very cute and she's my babe girl. I just want her to be happy can le. =) yup. its true i today smile alot being with her. I ate mos fries with her. That's her favourite! haha. =) I really miss the time i have with her. =)

Well it's really been a long time since I last typed an entry. Well looked through the past few entries, though some are private, so no one can see. They are only for my eyes! Hmm what can i bring up in this ever first entry.. I really hope that i can have this habit of blogging my stuff. =)

Well recently i meet this "little gal" really a cute gal. She's really random. She's sociable but she like to alone at some times. Kinda weird. No idea.. hmm.. Well she's Grace from E397 i guess. I forget that cellgroup number. Been msging for the past one week. Hmm.. She's a cute sister in christ. She can be very enthu. And sometimes really down. I can see from her emotions in the msg and when exam stress set in, She's really another person who I see. Well i guess when in church, we get real before GOD. =)

Haiz.. back in camp, I'm being stressed.  Year end will be havign exercise so i got to meet the requirement. Kinda under stress as there's lots of things to do. however, today my burden was eased as they had lowered the requirements. Really lucky me!  I heard that there's are rumours that we will be staying in. I'm kinda feeling bored by the idea.. It's a compulsary staying in. I bet everyone wont be glad about it.  Everyone at my side are kinda disappointed about the news. Well as for me, I'm alright about it. =)

I guess i'll improve my sentance sstructure on this blog. really got to look into it.

i'm so disappointed and discouraged.. My japanese classes. Is my learning ability too slow or what? I'm now at 7th lesson, but my level in Japanese still at 2 lesson. That's like 5 lesson behind! How can I catch up with the class? Teacher is teaching new things every lesson. Giving assignment in every lesson. I'm in the intensive class. It's really crazy... Monday assignment only have 1 day for me to complete which is Tuesday. On wednesday, they will go through with me the assignment. I only reserved my tuesday and thursday night for studying my japanese. 2 nights... How  is it possible for me? Talking about studying up late. How to? the next day i have to go back to camp at 7am. I wake up at 5am. With insufficient rest? I'm already sleeping less than 7 hours. What more i want to scarifices?  The pace of this class is intensive.. my ability is slow and my mum put me in a fast class. I cant complain much.. Haiz.. giving me so much hope.. If i tell her this, surely she will say that i never study of course will get this result. That's the last thing i want to hear from her. Right now i'm in this situation, I dont want to hear anymore discouraging words.

Today teacher gave us dictation, i cant do it.. I can't. Now is 7th lesson, by right i should know. But why i dont know? Why? That's a very good question to be asking me... Tuesday and thrusday night study late? The next day i have running... What if i faint. then everyone is happy? is it? must it reach until that state? I'm still teaching my trainees too. haiz.. I now already no appetite to eat.. What more can i say..

Last time when i was in poly i take french classes.. but back then i was skipping classes as i went out with my back then gf. Now am i going to back out again? I really want to say no.. But why? haiz.. No one will understand what i'm going through... If i say no, my dad and mum will ask me why am i wasting the money. My ma and my dad have japapese class form this school too. They have an image. I think i'm going to affect it..

Also in the class, there are working adults. Some are so fast learner. There is this one who is sitting 2 seats beside me. I find him kinda irritating. He know so much and why is he still taking the basic classes? You know what i mean? if you know so much, you should proceed on to the next level. having these type of students really place pressure on me... they know everything. one thing good is that during lesson, when you don't know what the word mean, just ask them and they will tell you. Haiz.. Me tuesday and thursday night.. How is it possible for me to achieve?

I have intention to drop to one class per week. so i have more time to study for it. But you think my ma will allow? no/ SHe surely wont. She thinks that her son can finish the basic in just 6months. I dont know what to do. I have two choices. !st choice is to carry on the classes and just write down notes and when ever test come, Just take it and the result will show that i'm an idiot. 2nd choice is that i chiong and die. Chiong and get myself tried, scarifice sleep and possibility of me fainting in a run is higher. which one i should choose?

My social life is also affected.. I dont have time to myself at all. On sunday, It's a full tuition day for me. Saturday is church day for me and friday night i go for cell group. So that's left with monday to thursday night. how can i cope with it?  Haiz.

Hey well today is the day I'm posted out as a trained signaler. It' s really fast.. 8 weeks just fly past.. well I'm assignned to SI to be an operator. I guess you dont know know glad i'm. Most likely i can get a 8 to 5 operation. =)

Well recently I managed to catch up with my secopndary school friends. Hiaz.. all i can say that 4 years not seeing thme. Lots of changes had been made.. SOme regreted for the changes.. I'm affected by the changes they made.. Haiz.. Just talking about it will make me troubled minded... +Innocence lost.. Well.. This is their actions they will learn the aftermath of the action.. I'm going to show my support for them right now.. regreting it isn't getting it any use. I believe after every storm, there will be a good day.. I just pray that one fine day will appear in their troubled life right now..  

It has been 7 weeks since i last typed an entry in. I though i didnt type anything about my BMT life. I think it's really a long time since i last type. Hmmm. well 15 weeks had passed. With paint and sorrow, with hardship and sweat, I am finally a private. FINALLY. It has been a long way for me. But it was fun. 

At first, It was hard for me to adapt to the life. I was constantly complain about having to book in. You know how boring it can be when you have to take a fast craft everytime for booking in. It is like the camp is on another part of the world but it isn't. You get what i mean. However, Right now my camp is in choa chu kang. It is somewhere at the west area. traveling from one end of singapore to another end. Not too bad for me. Since singapore is small right? 

Oh. coming back to my ns life, I shall record some of my funny times in my BMT time. Well THere was this time my whole section get confinement. Haiz..  it was a real stupid mistake. After light out we were making noises. We have crocodile, crickets and monkey. the moment you step into my section at night, you will though that you stepped into a safari. Just playing. We were caught when one of the sergeant stepped in. How terrible can it be? luckily, They( brian and i were asleep) were confined for just additional 2 hours. what is 2 hours man. Hmm maybe2 hours just mean a later fast craft for them. However, booking out timing really matters alot to NS man! 

This thing occured in the earlier part of the BMT period. Well We were so bored after our RO briefing that we crumpled newspaper and black tape it. guess what. We improvised a soccer ball and played. it was likeda lame ut that idea was fun. it got us all invloved. we were kicking it and was having fun. Another event was this guy in my platoon. He cross dress. Yup! can you imagine a guy wearing swimming trunks acting as a girl. that was horrible. But any way haha, we played music and use our torchlight to simulate a disco place, pop up the volume and paly music, there was this guy(eddy) he will just dance and he even does lap dance. He place a hair in the middle of our bunk and we will begin to volunteer one guy to sit on that chair. Eddy will do lap dance on whoever was sitting on that chair. great arh. It was a traumatising experience. 

Bathing was a very long duration. If you enter the bathroom and saw a few of  them taking pails in. Be prepared to be stuck insinde for 30 mins or long. We will be filling our pails up with water and splashing at one another. Even though we dried ourself. We were so "lucky" to be splashed wet.... Guess we have to join in the fun. In the end everyone will be tired and we will end up not playing. But it is really noisy. imagineing 20 guys taking their pails and splashing water at one another. haha. It's really fun. 

The Passing out parade(POP) was a memorable one. My parents and my brother didn't know where i was standing. there i was standing alone waiting for them to put on the cap for me. I see lots of my counterparts smiling as their parents put on the cap for them. It was a happy moment. Commanders going around shaking hands,  wishing us all the best. it was really fun . It was worth the while to be a soldier.. However these memories will stay.. I do agree good thing comes to an end. and i will have to carry on my next phrase in army, Which will be a signaller. Wish me luck.  

Yup well just this week i completed my SIT test. That marks the end of my combat phrase for my BMT. Isn't that a good new for me? haha. No more field camp! I can say good bye to field camp! yup. Well SIT test is so much easier compared to Field camp. Fiel camp is an outfield event which last for 6 days 5 nights. However the SIT test just lsat for 3 days and 2 night. Comparing both of them together, the SIT test is no challenge at all! I love the night scenery and the dusk secenery of my SIT test area. We are located just infront of the beach. it is quite a distance from changi Airport. I can see the control tower. It is stanging straight and controlling any aeroplane which is going to land or take off. The scenery is so nice. I really hope that i have a camera with me back them. It is full moon from monday til wednesday. So back at night, We depends on moonlight to move around in out field camp. It was good. 

" What is SIT TEST? Mind sharing with us more?"

Well SIT test is a test to assess us if we can be a leader or not. During the SIT test we are given situation and we are being assessed on how to solve them and cope with the time stress and less resources. Between each mission, We have to kept walking from each check point to another. It is the waling part which will tired me out. However, I am glad that i managed to get hold of myself and endure though the walking. During this SIT test, each man in the section is given a postion and they were taught how to use the equipment which is required for themt complete the task. I am assigned DEMO specialist.
Exploding obstructions is my area. 

However my mind is set on resucing the precious life of our fellow army. Guess what's the vocation which i am looking toward? Yup, that's it. COMBAT MEDIC will be my profession. Just hope that i will get into that professional vocation. The though of running to rescue the wounded soldiers just can drive me crazy. I know that it is really tough. But I think if that is tougher han others. In what Case what  is OCS? right? haha. But please dont get me wrong. I ain't comparing Combat medic to OCS. they are specialised in different aspect of the army. =) 

This week has been a short week for me. I am glad that once agian I am back in my home sweet home. I am adapted to the life of a soldier. Living out of your house with no one to depends except your buddies and your bunk mates. So communication is a crucial tool between them . Your public relation is also important.  Yup. Well curreltnyl thing are going for me. However, as the combat phrase comes to an end, that mean there will be space for physical phrase. It is going to be a tiring one. Within one day, we can get ready to expect two periods of circuit training. One in the morning and eveing. that is really crazy! however, I wanna get into COMBAT MEDIC, what is the training to me right? just hope that i dont incurre any injury on myself. =)

Well finally my combat phrase for my BMT is gone. Just this week, I had complete my S.I.Test. Well it turn out better than i expected. It isn't tiring compared to the field camp which is 6 days instead. One thing good about this S.I.Test, It is just 3 days and 2 nights. Having been through 6 days in outfield condition, What is 3 days compated to. Am i right?

Having been through the S.I.Test, actually tell you if you can be a leader. Hmmm , on my self assessment, I dont think i will be a leader evn though i am given the choice. My mind is set on rescuing the life of my fellow soldiers. Guess what? Yup. It is combat medic. =) Dont give that shocking face. Yup, you didnt get me wrong. I am set and ready to go to combat medic. That is where i hope to go! =) As i am aspired to resuce life since i am a lifeguard. Looking at my figure and my pysical fitness, there is no other choice for me except Combat medic. Right now , all the SOC and the NAFA are out there for me to conquer them! "HERE I COME!" 
yup. That's my point of view. 

"What did you do during SIT test? Mind sharing?"

Well it is just some mission and lots of walking. Stay focus and be strong.

Well.... Another entry. Talking about another chapter of my NS life. Just completed my field camp. It is totally terrible. In the field camp, Your best buddies are the germs and the bad smell. The phrase " chao recuits" really fit us.

One day feore the field camp, We are given ample admin time to pack  our field camp and to rest. The thought of going for field camp is already torturing. It is like, (hmmm..) alright you picture a cage full of chicken and imagine that you are one of the chicken, looking helplessly at the butcher killing your buddies ( chicken) right infront of you. Yup. I exaggerate it. So it is just before the field camp and our sergent began the torment... Just some pumping for warming up and he told us about the seriousness of field camp.. Blah.. blah... Okay i will keep the field camp to a short one. I wont get in further details. 

During the field camp, We are really treat worse than the prisoners. Dirty uniform, sweat, smelly uniforms, Terrible ration, A bad sleeping place and the "best" toilet... When come to digging the shellscrape, It is really tiring... It look like it wont end.. We just carry on dig and dig. Sleeping on it is no comfortable at all. The next morning, we woke up wiith aches all over our bodies. Help me... However, one the fifth day, It rain! It is really a blessing in disguise. All activities come to a stop and we have 3 hours to sleep. Taking a short nap. However when we went back to our trench, our field pack is dip in muddy water and everything inside our field pack is dirty.  

The last night outfield is a heaven for us! We slept in building. It is comfortable for us.=)

Wel well! guess what! 15 days of torture is finally over! yipee! i finally get to book out! Spending 15 days in that island is really terrible. It really teaches me how to treasure what i have, even the most basic thing - freedom! In there the life is so regimental. Totally hate it. If i have a choice, I will choose not to even take a step on that island! 

Well yesterday was my first book out. Headed straight down to queentown, without butting my bag at home. I was clad in my unoform and went down to queentown to meet up with all my lifeguard. All of them said that I had slim down. That is really good! living 15 dyas on that island had caused me to reduce 5 kg. 5 kg in 2 weeks! haha. that is totally possible provided you follow a strict rule. " Only eat what you need, not what you want" and " INPUT = OUTPUT" that is totally true.

Yesterday night, my lightout was 0130. it was so cool. Went out with my lifeguards to Settler's Cafe at holland village outlet. We played games and had root beer float. Eveyone was enjoying the game. That was totally cool. I was so tired that if anyone notice me, I am just sitting over there not producing any noise. Noticing everyone. =) Simple things which i didnt even notice is becoming so "BIG" to me. 

In the island, i get to know lots of pals and buddy. It is the good side of it. Tomorrow i will have to get back in there. just hope that it is better.

Well it has been a long time since i last entered an entry. What had i been busy with? haha. Well had been catching up with my friends before I left for NS.  Just last week I meet up with Kai Xin. Yup. She is the GEM girl who I know. Yup. Well it was a nice afternoon. Welll spent. We caught up with one another over coffee and my favourite a tiramisu with some rum. Yummy yummy. =)

I had been helping ym uncle to work too. If i remember not wrongly, It was last sautrday, 9 man went to help my uncle to work. We help from 10 in the morning til 2 in the noext morning. It is really tiring and it is the first time I am helping my uncle to moce so many boxes. There are 200 boxes of files and they ain't light at all. 200 boxes excluding the furniture. It really kill us! this job should be a battlion of commando not a bunch of young man. =) These 9 man  become the elites. We sweat as if there isnt tomorrow. *(What a silly comprasion) 

One good new. I pass the math qualitifying test. Yup. I was 15 mins late and I managed to pass it. Luckily me! yup. Well the next barrier for me is the english test. I hope I can pass the test. 

Yesterday ching hui emailed me and she is going back to taiwan for a short vacation. Well that is great. A studious girl taking at break, giving her mind a rest. 

Well that all for me for the past 10 days? I think so. It hasn't been anything much. 

Love my girl girl=)